As a new year begins, I find myself still uncertain about what the Lord's purpose for me is now that I am no longer a caregiver. And there is almost a dread because of the unexpected change in the family dynamic now that Momma isn't here to be the nucleus that drew us all together.
What has stayed in my mind all day today is a quote from Dr. Jerry Falwell, "We live life looking forward, but we understand life looking back."
I pray for the day that I will be able to wrap my heart around all this and understand.
Until then, I will stay on my knees and keep looking up.
